Okay, so I talked to my sponsor. I told her I was finding the assignment difficult because I found that I was restating the same things, just in different ways. In the meantime, I'd had an idea of doing a collage to represent the things over which I'm powerless, and she LOVES that idea.
So, we're both happy.
I'm not blowing off the assignment, or refusing to be cooperative. Instead, I've come up with a way to do it that is meaningful to me. And my sponsor, who is an artist and also very visually oriented, likes that very much.
Best of all, I didn't ditch my sponsor because I was scared to talk to her. Maybe I'm starting to grow up, just a little.
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Cool. Sounds good! A lot of recovery involves 'biting the bullet' and 'doing the next right thing,' whether we like it or not. And its only by DOING the suggested actions that we get to see how 'wrong' our neurosis was. Its never a good idea to buy into neurotic thoughts about things generally. In aa or out of it. I don't think its possible to make a good decision based on fear. They just end up being neurotic decisions. Ie poor decisions.
I always say, IF YOU DON'T KNOW, ASK! Alkys are very good at agonizing and 'stewing' for weeks instead of just asking !!!??? Asking is so EASY and solves so many problems, but most new people prefer to agonize relentlessly instead of going 'straight to the horses mouth' and asking a simple question!! Once you've learned how to communicate fearlessly, you'll wonder why you EVER subjected yourself to so much needless uncertainty and confusion by being too scared to ask for clarification.
action = progress
The collage idea sounds great. I might do something like that myself. If you don't mind me stealing the idea. Have a great weekend.
JJ
Whatever helps YOU is the key. Your willing and you are doing it.
I hope you have a great Florida weekend!
Absolutely amazing! In a way, there was some fear here. You walked thru it by doing something uncomfortable, talking ot your sponsor about your struggles. And what relief you are in today.
I LOVE the idea of a collauge. Isn't it wonderful how things tend to reveal more and more. I am really happy for you. Have a great Friday!
Good for you! Glad it is working itself out!
Yes. You ARE making progress and it's a buzz and a privilige to 'watch' you. :-)
A thought: has it ever occured to you that your Spon may be as 'scared' of you as you of her? "What the heck do I say to my Sponsee? Do I have anything useful to contribute?"
..they're human just like you and me.
:-)
x
Good luck with the collage. Glad you didn't just walk away from your sponsor.
wonderful idea! I did a drunk-collage of my own a few years ago (at the counselor's request). It was painful and exhilirating at the same time...and I learned a lot about myself.
Best wishes.
I love the idea of your collage! Creativity is so powerful in recovery. Good luck with the collage :)
It feels really good to know when you have done something differently. Good for you girl!
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G~
Great idea!!
Ditto, hope you are doing this week!
Peace
It's been over a week. You okay?
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