Friday, July 22, 2005

My Great Big First Post

Let's just get this baby launched . . .

We'll come back with some real meat and potatoes in a jiffy!

13 comments:

Grace said...

Oops, there you are again, you keep popping up all over, its hard to keep track of you! :-) I think the title of this blog may be part of my prob lol!

Pam Jarnagin said...

Yeah, I just wanted to try something out, so created a new blog. Thinking about keeping this one, though, as my menopause/sobriety/bitch and rant blog.

Grace said...

Its looking good, you have great design talent. You must let me know which blog to link from mine as I spend ages looking around them all lol! Also, why dont you charge for your templates, there are others that do, it would be another income and you could then justify spending time doing them?

Pam Jarnagin said...
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Pam Jarnagin said...

Oops! Put the wrong link in there, then couldn't figure out how to edit the comment.

Anyway, you should just link to my Aspixiated blog for now. If that changes, I'll let you know.

I've thought about doing some templates as "buyware," and may add that category in the future, but it means I'd have to figure out how to set up Paypal in order for people to purchase them, and I've been too lazy to do that so far. Also, I'm usually trying to figure out how to something in CSS, too, so it's not a total waste of time. I just feel guilty when I know I should be focusing on paying work and finishing things I've committed myself to doing.

Grace said...

Thanks for the comment over at my place Pam, it is good to identify with others. Hope you are still doing well OTW and I am putting in a determined effort this week!

Pam Jarnagin said...

Tomorrow will be 3 weeks! I'm still battling the "craves," though. It's not that I feel I need it and have to have it. I just read someone's post about having a new kind of vodka martini, and I think, "Ooh, yum... I'd really like to try that!" And then I remember that I can't. The worst part is, there's that little voice that keeps whispering, "Well, it's not forever. Just go a bit more, and then you can have a drink or two now and then." I know this is a total crock, because it always starts out that way -- I have control, I don't over-indulge, and then bit by bit, I start slipping, and soon it's into the same old pattern that's caused so much to be wrong in my world.

Don't mean to go on and on. I probably should really just do a sobriety blog, and write all of this stuff there. I just can't have 50 million blogs, though, so I'll have to decide which to keep, and which to delete, if I go that route!

Grace said...

3 weeks is great! Do you have any support? GP, AA or anything? I dont use any, couldnt imagine keeping AA meetings up and its not my approach. A sobriety blog would be good, I can identify with you in particuloar with the profession etc. Whatever topic blog you persue, I will pop in and see you. When I can find you that is! lol :-)

Pam Jarnagin said...

The only "support" I have is the accountability I have now with the people who know I've got the problem and that I'm working to overcome it, but they just ask me very vague "How are you doing?" questions. Not "How's the not drinking going? Have you started any counseling?" or anything like that. I think they don't know what is okay to ask about, or maybe the whole thing is just terribly uncomfortable for them. So no -- not any real support. And I've got issues with AA that makes me not want to go there again.

I feel very much that I'm totally white-knuckling it right now. I'm scared I'm going to slip the first real opportunity I have. The payoff just hasn't been great. I'm not sleeping, I've actually gained weight since stopping, etc. Plus, a lot of the stuff I was attributing to drinking (i.e., hot flashes, waking up in a sweat, forgetfulness, depression, inability to focus and follow through, etc.)just seems to be me going through the beginning of menopause.

The only thing that's keeping me sane right now is running. I'm doing about 8 miles a week, and it really helps with the stress and depression.

Well, it's almost 4:30 AM, so I'd better get to be while it's still dark!

Grace said...

I'm in pretty much the same situation, AA doesnt appeal and I doubt I'd keep up meetings. I wonder too if I';m becoming menopausal...forgetfulness, depression, inability to focus and follow through...are these also signs? I must admit I know nothing much about it, maybe a trip to the GP is in order. Though I doubt theres much can be done? I do feel overly depressed considering my life is OKish at the mo. Catch up with you soon.

John and Jodie Ackerman said...

Good luck kid. Looks like a long and hard battle for both you and Roy.

John and Jodie Ackerman said...

That was John, by the way.

Pam Jarnagin said...

Umm, you guys DO realize this was written 5 years ago, right? I've now been sober for 3 1/2+ years. Thanks for the encouragement, though! Love you both. :)